The past couple of weeks has flown by and my life has really changed. My surgery date was May 10th but the changes started a couple of days prior. My anxiety level was through the roof! I needed to stay busy to keep myself calm but the people in my life seemed to have other plans. Not to mention, some of them wanted me to counsel them on personal issues even when I told them I just didn’t have it in me to listen or solve their problems (more of life-sucking friends later). I ended up extremely irritable and frustrated right before surgery.
Despite that, I was surprisingly calm and excited the day of surgery.
I was a little nervous by my wonderful parents were with me and helped to keep me level. The nurses were amazing even though they made me take down the bun I had worked so hard to get to the top of my head. Apparently no rubber is allowed in the operating room. *shrug*
There was one complication during surgery. Unfortunately, I’m allergic to something in anesthesia. I was almost completely under when I suddenly woke back up, burning and itching from head to toe! The operating room went into a slight uproar as they attempted to calm me down while getting something to put into my IV to stop the reaction. They did and put me back under. Next thing I know, I was waking up, in excruciating pain and asking for my dad.
To be totally honest, the pain I felt when I woke up brought tears to my eyes. It was really bad. It mainly burned and felt like my chest was on fire. A few hours later, I was sent home and my dad helped get me into bed.
I don’t want this to be too long so there will be another post where I discuss my reactions and things I’ve been doing to help with recovery.
Surgery is in a matter of hours. I’m nervous. I’m anxious. I’m having crazy dreams of falling post-op and busting my stitches open. Last week, I would fall asleep at 3am and be awake by 7am. This week, is better…I’m asleep around 2am. I think my nerves are high due to my overactive imagination and the fact that I’ve never so much as sprained an ankle. This may not be considered a major surgery but it’s major and life altering for me.
Despite all of the nerves, I’m excited for this new adventure. I’m excited to be able to tie my shoes without trying to manuever around my breasts. And once I’ve fully recovered, I will love not being in pain all the time. Not to mention this has got to be the best excuse in the world to go on a shopping binge!
Oh, I had my pre-op appointment and was told that at least 6 pounds was being removed from my chest! Even with that, I may still be a D cup but the doctor is hoping for a full C. I knew breasts were heavy but hearing the doctor say it just made it seem so much more real.
My next update will be post op and I will try to include some pics from surgery day with my pseudo-brave pre-op face and whatever face I’m making post-op.
In 2 weeks, I will be having surgery. The realization of this hit me hard when the hospital called to schedule me. That also made me realize I hadn’t even started shopping for the things I’ll need post-op. I went online to get what I knew was a quick list of items. I was so wrong.
Post-op Surgery List
Vitamin c (reduce scaring)
Bromelian (pineapple extract to reduce swelling/scaring)
OTC sleep aid (for trying to sleep with pain due to being elevated)
Stool softener (too many meds = constipation)
Hibiclens/Antibacterial soap (to wash body with before surgery)
Thermometer (1st way to detect infection)
Low sodium soup
Wedge pillow (can’t lie down)
Button down gowns/shirts (can’t lift arms)
Bucket (for nausea)
This really isn’t even a complete list. I didn’t even cover entertainment for bedrest or the long list of recommended vitamins to help expedite recovery. Not to mention the list of things I need to do like clean house, do laundry, get my hair done, pay bills early so I don’t have to think about them later….the list feels never ending.
I truly just need to focus on relaxing and checking things off the list one by one.
I was at the mall yesterday and had to stop myself from going into Bath & Body Works to buy lip gloss. It was hard but I walked away. Why would I force myself to walk away from the greatness that is B&BW lip gloss with its menthol healing properties and high shine? Because I am utterly obsessed with lip gloss. At any given time there are at least 6 in my bag.
Going to the drug store pretty much guarantees that I will be buying more. I don’t spend much on gloss. A $30 tube of gloss is not something you will find in my bag. I like them cheap, easy to locate and non-sticky.
Here is what’s in my bag right now:
EOS (evolution of smooth) Strawberry Sorbet. They are right when they say smooth! This cute balm is tasty and makes my lips super soft. It smells delightful and it’s organic!
Liquid Lipsmackers Watermelon. This is little tube last a pretty long time. It has a great smell and high shine. I really love that it is non-sticky.
Liplicious Signature Vanillas Berry. I actually don’t love this particular B&BW gloss. It’s a tad sticky and very thick. I use it once in a while but only if I can’t find something else after digging through my bag for a minute or so.
Green Apple Lip balm Walgreens brand. I love this one because not only is it a triple threat (shine, smell and no-nsticky) it was $0.99 and a little goes a long way! I’ve had this since Christmas, use it more than anything else and still have a little over half left.
Lipsmackers Lip Sparkler Vanilla Frosting. This is an old favorite that I always keep on hand. It doesn’t do much for moisture but it last a long time and is easy to slip in my pocket or clutch. This is my favorite to carry with me when I’m going out. I’m not big on color but I love shine and shimmer so this works. And since it’s fairly cheap, I don’t mind reapplying it a lot. Which I do to attract attention to my lips…don’t judge me.
The Disco Ball. I have not idea the name of this one. It was also a $0.99 Walgreens find. I was surprised at how great this one is. First of all, it’s glitter which makes it a good going out gloss. Second, it’s actually very moisturizing. I really like it. If it weren’t full of glitter, I would use it daily.
And just to be honest, I probably will be buying that B&BW gloss very soon.
You can’t see it (and probably wouldn’t want to) but I’m doing my happy dance! I just heard from my doctor and my insurance company approved the breast reduction surgery! (Pauses for a moment to get my 90’s R&B girl group dance on.)
The surgery is just a few weeks away and I’m nervous out of my mind. I’ve never had surgery. Not even a broken bone. I’m not sure what to expect from the whole thing. I have heard that when you wake up from surgery, you feel as if your body is on fire. Not at all looking forward to that experience. But I am excited to have my boobs chopped off.
What this really means to me is no more pain, no more struggling to afford bras and no more unhealthy lifestyle due to the inability to workout. This is really about to be life changing and I’m scared but ready.
Knowing that for about 4-6 weeks post-op I won’t be able to do my hair, I started searching for protective styles. Unfortunately, I was having a hard time because I needed a braided style that was unique and not something every other woman I know is wearing right now. That eliminated my favorite Senegalese twist, kinky twist and box braids.
pictures from beautifulhairbraiding.com and foreverbloggingxo.blogspot.com
I asked a few gurus on twitter for some advice on other protective styles. I got some suggestions for the styles above as well as twisting my own hair. I won’t twist mine without extensions because my hair is too thin. Way too much scalp showing. Then I got a suggestion from @afroniquely to try Havana Twist. I fell in LOVE.
Happily Ever Natural did these herself and they are gorgeous! She has a YouTube tutorial showing the process. I won’t be doing these myself because it would be my first time and they have to last at least a month and a half. But later on, I will give it a shot.